My Favorite Future Adults

Oh how I love spending time with some of my favorite future adults...they made my weekend the best ever!!!



Post Bar Exam Shenanigans

Now that the bar exam is done and gone...I have so much free time and I have filled it with fun and relaxation these past couple of days.

First up was a spa day filled with a massage, a manicure, and a pedicure.

After a fun spa day came dinner at The Melting Pot

Love these ladies

Next up came shopping at The Limited - my favorite store and these are just a few of the items that I picked up while I was there...

Next up came a hair cut...and then date night with the hubby

Now I am sitting at home sick with an awful cold...but at least this sickness came after the bar exam.  Once this cold goes away I will still have so much free time to fill up with fun!!! Stay tuned!



Bar Exam Adventures

And the bar exam is finally OVER!!!  After months of studying, now my life can go on...until I find out the results in a couples months.  But for now, I am not even going to think about the exam or the results.  One of my best friends from law school "enjoyed" the adventure of the bar exam along with me. 

Here we are getting ready to drive down to take the exam

Dinner at Olive Garden the night before the exam

How we felt after Day 1 of the Exam

And we are DONE!!!

Thank you friend for taking on this experience with me and listening to my rants throughout these past few days.  And thank you everyone else in my life that has supported me these past few months.

Now the waiting begins...



One week...

One week from this moment, I will be in my seat...about to start the bar exam.  I feel like I should be freaking out more than I am at this moment, but right now I am just tired.  Tired of studying...and just tired in general because sleep does not come easy with an impending test coming so soon.  Overall, I am just ready for it to be over - but of course, not ready to quite take it yet - hopefully I will be this time next week.

If you all could be in prayers for myself and my three best law school friends, as all of us are coming to the end of our studying and getting ready to take this massive test.

We have made it this far...just one more week to go!

Conforming...

This morning, I read the second half of 1 Peter 1.  These four verses really stuck out to me today:

"13 Therefore, preparing your minds for action, and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 14 As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, 15 but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, 16 since it is written, "You shall be holy, for I am holy."  

Christians have a living hope - Jesus.  Our hope is living because it is sure, certain, and real.  Because of our hope, our lives should be different -  different from how they were before we had this hope.  I mean, if one day you think you are going to be single for the rest of your life, but then you meet this great guy/gal and you start dating and you have this hope that you will get married - you act differently, you feel differently.  Our hope in our future with Jesus should be like a billion times even better than that and our lives should be changed because of that hope.

We must constantly set our hope on that future and keep it in mind without becoming overburdened by life.  We have to keep perspective of that.  We need to not be conformed to our old life - our former "ignorance" before meeting Christ.  It is like how before you learned your ABCs, you were ignorant as to how to spell and when someone asked you what a letter was you would just always say G.  But after you learned your alphabet, it would be completely ignorant of you to say every letter was G when you knew now that it wasn't.  We now know the truth, so it would be ignorant of us to live opposed to the truth. 

Our responsibility is to keep our inner life and thoughts focused on our hope and to live it out through our outward actions.  All areas of our lives should be continually in the process of conforming to God's perfect and holy will.  No, we will never attain holiness and perfection in this lifetime on earth - but we must cling to our hope and with that hope comes a desire to try to attain a conformity with Jesus as best we can during our lifetime.

So You Think You Can Dance Week 1 Top 20

Last night was another night of good dancing.  No one is going home this week but two guys and two girls will be leaving next week-so the pressure is on.  First of all, I loved Cat's dress!  Very cute, glod, glittery, short, loved it!

So the dances:

My top three favorite routines were:

1. Audrey and Matthew's contemporary routine choreographed by Travis Wall.  He always creates amazing pieces and this was no exception.  The theme was the scene from Titanic where Leo is drawing Kate when she lies on the couch -- but don't worry - no nudity on SYTYCD.  It was a beautiful piece and I love love love Audrey.  She is cute as a button.

2. Tiffany and George's contemporary routine choreographyed by Sonya.  She also always does amazing pieces and this one was beautiful.  Honestly, I didn't really look at George much during this number, but my eyes were glued to Tiffany.  She was amazing!


3. Alexa and Daniel's jazz routine.  First of all, their bright red outfits plus their matching blonde hair made the piece amazing to watch and made their partnership perfect!  It was a fun routine.

My least favorite routines were:

1. Amelia and Will's hip hop routine choreographed by Napolean and Tabitha - I usually love their numbers but this one was not that great in my opinion.  It was the dancers pretending to be like cats.  I thought it was kind of corny and just not that entertaining.

2. Amber and Nick's waltz.  It was just okay.  Not super exciting.  Nick was in his element because he is a waltz/ballroom guy.

3. Whitney and Chehon's latin routine.  Whitney was great in her element but Chehon was just stiff and not that great to watch last night.

Overall, my favorite girls right now are Audrey, Tiffany, Alexa, Whitney, and Lindsay.  I think Janaya is in trouble of going home because she made absolutely no impression - at least on me.

My favorite guys are Matthew, Cyrus, and Dareian.  I think Chehon has a chance of going home.

Here are my three favorite dances so you can watch them too:

Thoughts on the Bachelorette - Emily and Overnight Dates

We started with three boys at the beginning of the episode...but it ended with only two left for Emily to choose between.  This week we were in Curacao, which looks absolutely beautiful - but basically like any other island area.  I love Emily's blue maxi dress at the beginning of the episode, but I hate how long the re-caps of each relationship are at the beginning.  There really was a lot of fluff filler time in this episode.  And by the way...how corny is it that Emily wrote "Emily + ?" in the sand...

Anyways, her first date was with Sean.  I love that Sean is wearing pinkish colored shorts in the first part of the date and then baby blue shorts at the dinner time part of the date.  Emily is saying in her interviews how Sean is the only one who has not said "I love you" yet and how that concerns her.  The two of them get in a helicopter to head to a private island -- is this the first helicopter ride of the season??? I don't remember any others and there are usually a ton on this show.  Their conversation sitting on the beach seems really awkward and Emily seems to be getting kind of tough on Sean.  She feels like she needs to know more about him.  Emily says that his family told her last week that Sean was more like buddies with his past girlfriends - which seems to be a red flag for Emily.  Sean says that his past girlfriend used to bring marriage up all the time but that he would deviate in the conversation to get away from that topic - probably another red flag for Emily.  His sister also told Emily that Sean doesn't like to get girls attached - and another red flag for Emily.  The thing is, I think Sean just had one long term girlfriend that he stayed with because it was comfortable and he didn't want to hurt her - so all of these comments are about that one relationship.  That doesn't necessarily mean that he will be like that with Emily and he hasn't acted that way with Emily at all - but I can understand why these thoughts would concern Emily. 

Then comes their dinner date on the beach.  Now Emily is super complimentary of Sean and sweet and not tough on him at all.  She is just saying all these things that she feels about him, but she tells him that she doesn't really know how he feels -- she is being so obvious -- just tell her you love her Sean!  He starts telling her some things like how she shouldn't worry about their lives fitting together and then he pulls out a letter that he wrote to Emily's daughter, Ricky.  Emily LOVES when a boy writes something and reads it to her (Ryan, Jef, now Sean).  Emily says that he is everything that anyone would look for in a husband, not just her -- is this her way of saying that he will find someone else?  Sean FINALLY tells her that he has fallen in love with her after the longest lead-up and being super nervous.  Emily then tells the cameras that all her questions were answered tonight and that she thinks Sean is totally ready to be a dad and be married.  Wait, was the only question whether he loved her?

Then finally they get the fantasy suite invite and key.  Sean says he would love to have the time to just talk with her and hang out with her all night.  They go to the fantasy suite.  We see them make out in the hot tub -- which may be the first time this has happened all season with any guy - usually we have make out hot tub scenes throughout the season on this show.  Emily then decides to not spend the night with Sean and she sends him back to his room.  She says she's a mom and spending the night with him doesn't line up with what she believes in and the example she wants to set.  Good for her!  Sean leaves feeling super confident that he is going to marry Emily.

Next up is Jef.  Emily tells him that they are going on a boat ride just the two of them -- umm...I am pretty sure it is not just the two of them.  There is probably someone driving the boat.  Then there are the multiple camera men.  Honestly, I don't know how they all fit on this boat.  It is super windy while they are on the boat and the sound is kind of annoying.  Jef tells Emily how he can't wait to meet her parents - that he loves parents and loves hanging out with parents.  To which Emily replies - hey I'm a parent!  She is just too corny sometimes, but maybe that is why her and Jef go well together.  Jef really wants to meet Ricky and make sure they all fit well together and that it will work.  Jef thinks the two of them have a better balance than any other two people. 

At dinner time, Emily is just glowing like she usually is around Jef.  Jef has a lot of questions for her, which I like.  He asks her where she wants to live if they end up together.  She says her ideal would be to move somewhere totally new for both of them and just start a new life, but that she is open to moving where he is.  He asks her why it hasn't worked for her and other guys in the past.  She says she has dated a lot of really great guys on paper, but there hasn't been that "unspoken thing" so she knew it would never work.  Jef says he has never been able to see the end goal with any girl he has dated until dating Emily (maybe that is because there is an end goal in a show like this).  He finally asks her whether she thinks he is a good fit for Ricky as a dad.  Emily tells him that when she was home with Ricky for a couple days in between things, he was the one she pictured fitting in with them. 

The fantasy suite card is pulled out.  Jef says he thinks it would be awesome to spend time in the fantasy suite together, but he understands and respects that both of their families will be watching and that they are involved in the process too and there is a time and a place for something like that and he plans to spend every night with her in their own fantasy suite (last part is cute).  Emily loves that he responded that way.  Emily says they will hang out there for a bit (meaning make out) but not spend the whole night.  At the end of the night Jef tells the cameras that it is time to "bridle these passions" and he leaves feeling super confident.

Finally comes Arie.  All these two do is kiss and make out - and they know it!  Arie even says, "It's hard to even talk because we always want to kiss each other and it feels great."  Emily says, "It's no secret that I just love kissing Arie."  The two of them go swimming with the dolphins which seems to totally scare and freak Emily out which is funny.  At dinner, Emily says she wants to find out if there is more to their connection from just chemistry.  She says, "I feel really close to you, but I don't know what you do on a Tuesday morning."  He talks about how he hates being alone, and since he lives alone all he does is go out and eat every meal out with friends - basically is the typical bachelor guy.  He asks her about where they would live and again she responds that she would live wherever he was.  He asks her what she expects out of a father.  She says she wants someone to love Ricky like she was his own child.  He thinks it would have to be a slow going relationship where he would start out as a friend and then move forward from there with no rush - just easy, fun, and lighthearted.  This seemed to make a lot of sense to Emily.  And it does make sense to move slow, but at the same time, I can see that Arie would never be the one to discipline Ricky and he would always be the "fun" guy - which probably would not be fun for Emily in the end.

Emily decides to not give Arie the fantasy suite card because she doesn't trust herself to say no to spending the night with him.  Oh my word!  Seriously.  I think that is kind of a bad sign if being with him would make her go against her morals.  And if he really knew her (like I think Jef does) then he wouldn't let her anyways.  But that is just my two sense.  All there relationship is is kissing - it is all they do and I am surprised they even sat at the table for dinner the entire time.

Emily is a complete mess at the rose ceremony.  She is crying up a storm.  She doesn't want to hurt anyone.  She didn't know it would be this hard.  BLAH BLAH BLAH.  This whole turmoil she is feeling just proves my theory that there is not just one guy made for one girl.  We are all compatible with numerous people - which is why she should not be surprised that she is falling for multiple people.  This is one reason why this show - as much as I love watching it - is crazy because this person falls for multiple people and its not like those feelings will just go away for the other people as soon as the show is over.  It just kind of sets the couple up for disaster in most cases.

Anyways, she sees some video messages from the guys - nothing special.  Then she gives out the roses.  First goes to Jef.  Second goes to Arie.  Sean is the one being sent home unfortunately.  Sean and Emily go sit on a bench in silence and Emily is just crying and sniffling and Sean is silent.  Most awkward moment ever.  Emily asks him what he is feeling -- SERIOUSLY??? That is probably the worst question ever.  He is feeling awful right now.  You just broke up with him.  He thought he was going to marry you.  I know Emily feels bad, but asking him how he feels is probably not the best thing right then.  I feel super bad for Sean when he tells us in the limo ride how he has just been picturing their lives together all week since their date.  That is such a hard part because you have this great date and then all you can do is think about that.  I mean, as a girl, we overanalyze everything and create stories in our minds of how great dates are and how the guy feels about us and all that.  So I guess Sean had been doing that too.  Poor guy...

So now I am on team Jef because they actually have a relationship built on more than kissing.

Taming the Tongue

 I have found that my tongue is definitely not tamed when I am in my moments (very long moments right now) of stress.  I say things I shouldn't say.  I say things I don't even always mean.  I can just be really mean and irritable in my speak.  And this especially happens to the hubby since he is the one always around me and always picking on me when I try to study.  Even if he is annoying me though, my words to him should not be how I have been speaking.  I have to control my tongue and control my thoughts that bring forth that speak.  Think before I speak and not just react. 

James tells us in James 3 that if someone can control his tongue and does not stumble in what he says, then he is a perfect man.  Obviously no one is perfect, so no one can completely control his tongue.  This just shows how difficult this task is for us, because if we could master it 100% we would be perfect - which will never happen.  So why even try to if it will never happen?

Because we want to glorify God in everything we do.  Because we don't want to hurt those around us that we love.  Because we don't want to be an inconsistency like James talks about in verese 9 and 12.  How can we speak such wonderful things and praise God and encourage others with our speech, but then also curse God and say terrible things to others and bring others' spirits down.  It is a complete inconsistency.  And we are one of the only creatures that are so inconsistent it seems.  James states how a spring can't bring forth both fresh and salt water.  And a fig tree cannot bring forth olives and figs and a grapevine cannot bring forth grapes and figs.  Everything created in nature has one thing it produces, yet our mouths produce all kinds of speech - both good and bad.  We are complete inconsistencies.

So this is my apologize to those I have hurt with my speech especially in my stressful moments the past couple weeks, especially to my hubby.  And this is my new goal to try to live consistently with my speech - trying to produce only the good and not the bad.

"1 Not many of you should become teachers, my brothers, for you know that we who teach will be judged with greater strictness. 2 For we all stumble in many ways. And if anyone does not stumble in what he says, he is a perfect man, able also to bridle his whole body. 3 If we put bits into the mouths of horses so that they obey us, we guide their whole bodies as well. 4 Look at the ships also: though they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are guided by a very small rudder wherever the will of the pilot directs. 5 So also the tongue is a small member, yet it boasts of great things. How great a forest is set ablaze by such a small fire! 6 And the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell.7 For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and sea creature, can be tamed and has been tamed by mankind, 8 but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. 9 With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse people who are made in the likeness of God. 10 From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so. 11 Does a spring pour forth from the same opening both fresh and salt water? 12 Can a fig tree, my brothers, bear olives, or a grapevine produce figs? Neither can a salt pond yield fresh water."

Big Brother 14 Starting Soon!!!

Big Brother 14 starts July 12th and I am so pumped!!!  Bar review breaks will definitely occurs to watch this even though it starts so close to the bar exam.

Check out this link to see the houseguests!  And guess what!!!???  There are four mystery returning houseguests from prior seasons!  Who do you think will return to the show???

Do you think they would re-use any of the all stars that were on it last season?  Maybe Dick since he left last season so quickly.  I personally love Jeff and Jordan but they were on it last season.  I also love Eric and Jessica from Season 8.  So many choices....



Thoughts on the Bachelorette Emily - Hometown Dates!

With four boys left...it was the week we all love - HOMETOWN DATES!!!

First up, was Chris in Chicago.  First of all, I loved Emily's red pants during this date.  Anyone who knows me knows I love colored pants of any kind.  I also loved all the tulips we saw planted around the sidewalks in the city.  So pretty. 

Ok, so back to Chris since this is his date.  The theme of his date - Poland.  This is the first time I realized that was his heritage.  Maybe he talked about it before but I didn't remember.  Either way, Chris is a first generation Polish American - which is very evident from his parents' strong accents.  Chris says, "On a scale of 1 to Polish we are Polish."  So Chris takes Emily to a Polish restaurant - during this scene Chris' eyes are like the prettiest blue ever!  They talk a lot about how bad Chris reacted last week and how emotional he was.  Emily says she feels bad for him.  He feels bad for acting that way.  Everybody just feels bad.  What a great start the the date.  Emily does point out something though that is a good quality of Chris - he did admit when he was wrong.  However, the fact that he admitted he was wrong doesn't mean that he changes his actions -- that would be the real key to whether he really thought was wrong or not.

Then the two of them go and meet Chris' parents and his two sisters.  Again, love his sister's green pants!  Basically, his whole family does not want to see Chris heartbroken.  His dad tells Emily that Chris would be there for both Emily and Ricky and would do his best at being a dad.  His dad asks Emily if there is love in their relationship and Emily says there is, so that seems to make his dad super happy.  Chris' mom tells Chris that he needs to fight for Emily if he really loves her.  He did fight last week, but not sure he is going to win the war.  Chris' dad also tells Chris that Emily told him that she is falling in love with him.  Not her exact words, but it really got Chris excited because he thinks she is going to pick him in the end now.  Uh oh.  Their date ends with some Polish (I am assuming) band playing and a dance party.

Next came Jef's date in St. George, Utah.  Apparently Jef's family has a lot of money since they own a ranch on a few hundred acres (looked a lot bigger than that though).  The two of them go on a four wheel type mountain car down a dirt road.  Emily says she didn't expect Jef to be so country because he is so trendy with his skinny jeans.  Then they do some clay shooting.  Emily says "who knew Jef in his skinny jeans had such a good shot."  Emily says she is super nervous about looking ridiculous shooting a gun, but then she hits every target.  Then she says she takes gun lessons at home.  Umm..why would you be nervous then???  I think she was just trying to get Jef's attention with all that.  Well it worked because Jef thinks she is super hot shooting a gun. 

Emily then meets Jef's two brothers, two sisters, and his sister-in-law.  His parents are there because they are doing some charity work in South Carolina.  How lovely.  So since the parents aren't there, Jef's older brother takes charge of being protective.  (By the way, all the girls in Jef's family are wearing skinny jeans - Jef totally fits in!).  So Jef's older brother Steve asks Emily why it didn't work with her and Brad and why it will work now.  She says that she didn't ask a lot of the hard, fundamental questions last time, but she is doing that now.  Ok. Wait a second.  Either the show is not showing us any of these conversations (which is completely possible) or Emily really isn't asking any questions.  Jef asked her a lot of fundamental questions last week, but she hasn't really asked any except for asking whether the guys are ready to be a dad - which I am pretty sure she asked Brad too.  So I have no idea.

Jef's sisters are super skeptical at first and worry about Jef getting hurt.  Emily says her biggest fear is getting her heart broken.  They ask Emily if she would move to be with Jef and she says she would go wherever -- I thought she loved Charlotte and last season she wasn't too keen on moving to Texas with Brad - who knows. 

So Emily wins the family over of course.  Then her and Jef go off on their own and Jef reads her a letter he wrote of all the things he loves about her.  He is super monotone reading this by the way and barely looks at her while reading which kind of makes it less romantic in my opinion.  But Emily eats it up and loves it and she has tears in her eyes by the end of it.  She says it was the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to her.  By the end of the date Emily says "it feels perfect inside my heart."  So basically, we know that Jef will be safe this week.

Third up comes Arie's date in Scottsdale, Arizona.  Of course, we start at the racetrack watching Arie drive his Indy car around.  Emily loves it and thinks he looks "stupid hot."  Then Emily jumps in his car and lets him drive her around the track after she puts on her own racing outfit which Arie loves.  Then they have a picnic and Arie starts talking about how he is nervous about Emily getting along with his parents because she is all American and his parents are very European.  But then he says don't be nervous.  Seriously??? After you just said you are super concerned about how it will go you tell the girl to not be nervous.  Yeah right.

So then Emily meets Arie's parents, his sister, and his twin brothers.  One of the twin brothers immediately says how much he loves Emily's southern accent -- I think this kid wants Emily to be his girl.  Then this next part annoyed me.  His mom starts talking all in Dutch and Arie starts responding in Dutch and then the whole family joins in -- all in front of Emily.  Poor girl is just sitting there not knowing what they are saying or what is going on or what she should do.  I wanted to slap Arie right then.  But then he says they need to stop because he doesn't want her to feel left out....umm she already does.

Emily and Arie's mom then have a talk and his mom's accent is super thick and Emily can't always understand what she is saying.  His mom asks (just like others) what happened with Emily and Brad and Emily gives the same answer about not asking the right questions last time.  Emily asks whether Arie is in a good place to balance a family and a racing career.  His mom says it is difficult (and she knows because his dad did the same racing gig) but that she has been married 31 years so that is proof that it can work.  Yeah, basically Emily would need to get used to being alone a bunch while he travels -- so basically she will have the same life she has now with a part time husband.  But hey, Emily said she was okay with that earlier in the season because she likes her alone time.  His mom says she can't wait for Emily to choose Arie -- she is very confident. 

Arie tells his dad that he is ready to propose to Emily now.  His dad says that Emily is pretty and really nice and likes her accent.  Yes dad, those are the important qualities in a girl.  Arie then says it has been like a dream because everything has worked out so well -- it is a dream because this is not real life - wait until the show is over and see if life is like a dream then. 

Emily's last date is with Sean and I am really hoping she picks him in the end.  He is just such a sweetheart and a good guy.  I love Emily's dress on this date - all red, white, blue, and flowly in the wind.  Sean brings his two dogs, Lola and Ellie, with him on the first part of the date.  Love it!  I wanted to name one of our dogs Lola but the hubby nixed that idea unfortunately.  They just hang out at the park with the dogs which Emily likes because it is every day life and she could see Ricky enjoying this. 

Sean then brings Emily to his parents' house to meet his parents, sister, brother in law, niece, and nephew.  First of all -- HUGE HOUSE!!!  The niece even has her own playhouse in the backyard that is big enough for me to live in -- just need some plumbing and electricity and I would be good to go. 

I love the practical joke Sean plays on Emily by telling her that he still lives with his parents and showing her "his room" that is a mess and full of stuffed animals.  Emily tries to stay all polite and souther and like it is no big deal when in her mind she is walking out the door.  Emily says in her interview "he is a mess and he likes stuffed animals. what?"  Yeah.  Good thing that was a joke.  And Emily is such a liar because she says she wouldn't have cared anyways and that she would move in there too.  What a liar.  Sean's dad says how he sees how much Sean has opened up since meeting Emily and he loves it.  Sean's mom tells Sean that he needs to be serious because Emily is seriously looking for a husband and father -- she is really looking out for Emily here. 

This date didn't seem super long because when Emily left it was still light out and most of the other dates end at night time.  Maybe it started earlier?  Who knows?  But I loved Sean and his family and I think Emily and Ricky would fit the best with them because they are super all American just like her.  I also love that Sean is always chasing her in the street calling her name because he chased her car down to give her one last kiss.  Sean didn't tell her that he loved her on this date - he said she knows how he feels.  I think he is going to have to say it next week to stay in on this relationship compared to the other guys who have said it a bunch.

So the guy going home this week...Chris.  Poor Chris.  Doesn't know what went wrong.  Doesn't understand why Emily doesn't love him.  Having himself another pitty party.  I think although him and Emily are closer in age, Emily is super mature - I mean she has a six year old.  Chris just needs to calm down some and grow up some.

Out of three guys left, Sean is definitely my number 1 pick for Emily.  Jef is my second pick.  And I hope Arie goes home next week.



The dreaded month of July...

And the month of the dreaded bar exam has now come upon us.  This past week it has really hit me how soon this bar exam will be here and the panic is starting to set in big time. 

Then a great big storm blew in Friday night while I was home alone...and yes, I was a little scared.  The winds were banging on the windows.  The trees were shaking A LOT.  I thought one might tumble into my house.  My poor dog Lucy was scared to death.  My other baby dog Bella just wanted to go outside and fight the storm.  And of course...the hubby was out playing softball like a crazy man before a storm.  But you know what...with all the many people who lost power because of it and many of whom still do not have power...we never lost it.  Our power remained on and only flickered a couple times. 

This may seem silly, but this storm reminded me of God's control and His power over everything.  He reminded me that he has control over everything in this world and in this life.  My house could have been torn up by a tree falling on it (like others have to deal with), but that did not happen.  God showed me that there are much bigger things to worry about than this silly test.  Yes, this test does decide whether I will be able to practice law - the field that I have studied and cried over the past three years...but even if the worst happens...life will go on.  I will still be alive.  I will still be married to a great guy.  I will still have my family and friends.  And most of all, I will still have my all powerful God. 

Isaiah 41:10 "fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"

2 Timothy 1:7 "for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control"

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 "So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.   For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison,  as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal"